Update on it all.

Again, not sure where to begin. Well, we will start with Taren.

I decided to take her to the doctors for her behavior problems. Dr. asked many questions and I gave long drawn out answers because everytime I had an answer I cried along with it. I've explained that she is out of control and I'm starting to lose it too. I know she has it in her to be well behaved but her dark side comes out EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. I'm explaining the behavioral problems to her and Taren is acting like an angel of course. So dr. says she's going to send us to some other dr. and we'll go from there. Fine, ok. Well, while paying my bill and waiting for the referral for the other dr Taren tells me she wants a sticker. So I tell her to ask for one and she does. The receptionist tells her she doesn't have any princess stickers but she has My Little Pony and Taren flips out. She kicks the girl, throws herself on the floor, (at this point I tell another office girl to get dr. so she can see this), screams, punches the wall and tries pulling out her hair and spits. Yep, this angel that I took in was gone and her true colors came barrelling ass out of her right in front of other patients, the dr., the nurses, and everyone else that could hear the screaming a mile or two away. I was horrified, embarrassed, and any other emotion you can think of. The dr. comes to me and pulls me aside and I'm in tears over this and tells me that Taren needs more attention than she thought. So we are going to go and do some counseling together. The dr. thinks it may be the dinamics (sp?) between the two of us but I don't know about that. She has had her days with her other grandmothers but it's every day with me. There is so much I can tell you about her but I don't want it to seem like I can only complain about my daughter because I love her with my heart and soul. I feel like such a failure with her. There are so many things I could admit to the people who read this but if I did that then I'd be a failure to you all too. It hurts so bad to feel like I can't control my 4 year old. She has a complete hold on me and knows how to push my buttons. Hopefully some counseling will help.

Cheerleading: Well, we were supposed to compete in Southington today but due to the weather it was cancelled. Come on people, like you've never driven in 8 inches of snow. GEEZ! No seriously, I was thrilled that it was. I wish I would have gotten a call earlier than 7:30 am, you know, like maybe the day before so I didn't have to do 5 hairdo's and get 5 girls up and ready by 8 to leave my freaking house! GRRRR Chalker High, GRRR!

Everything else is good. Yep, I said, I'm basically doing ok. School is rocking so far, but yet, I've only been back for a week. I start venipuncture on Monday. Totally thrilled about that! I get to poke people. YAY! Well, if you read it all, thanks for stopping by. Hope to hear a comment or two! Pics to follow.

Stupid cheer moms.

Venting ahead so be aware.

I have 13 girls on my squad. Out of those 13, I have problems with 3. The rest of the girls are awesome!!! What's the problem with the 3 girls you ask. Their mothers.
Girl #1- Out of 13 practices this kid showed up for 3 and the mother is questioning why the kid isn't getting the cheers. Well dumbass, let me explain it to you. We learn atleast 3 cheers a day. That's a total of 39 cheers learned already. If you actually brought your kid to practice she would know them all. No, instead she is going to make the rest of my squad look like crap. Oh yeah, also, stop feeding her candy and pop during practice. She is not allowed to eat that stuff. READ YOUR CONTRACT!

Girl #2- PAY ATTENTION TO YOUR COACH! Not the football players, or other squads and then wonder why you aren't catching on. I know you are only 7 but the rest of the girls get it. Why don't you? Oh yeah, to this kids mom, don't smoke on the field. It's not only ignorant to the other parents and children who hate the smell of the shit but it's just rude. Not everyone wants to die of lung cancer, k?

Girl #3- Good gawd where do I begin? Well, I know it's not your fault that your mom is a dumbass. How many times can I tell her no flip flops during practice, or eating, or drinking unless we take a water break. Oh yeah, also stop babying her. She's 7. She knows right from wrong. I'm not a mean coach, I just want my girls to look great this year and your daughter is holding us back because she would rather screw off and not pay attention to me and the other coach.

Ok, now that that's out of the way. On to better things. My Monday marriage thingy. This week, I"m going to make sure my husband knows I appreciate that he cooks dinner the night I don't have cheerleading practice. I do appreciate it. If he didn't do this then my night would never end. Between practice, studying, cleaning up and kids my days would be 20 hours with only 4 to sleep. So my darling husband, thank you. I love you.

So what's new?

Well, I started back to school finally. I am going for Ultrasound Tech or Radiology. Not sure yet, but both should be pretty exciting. I am really excited about this round of my professional student career. I have changed my mind so much in the past but was never really excited about what I chose. This time is kind of different. I enjoy going to class. I study harder than I ever have. I'm talking late nights and early mornings. I'm at a good start of it paying off. I took my first two tests today and aced the both of them. I have 2 tests on Monday and 1 on Tuesday so we'll see how those go.

Let's talk cheerleading for a moment. I have 13 girls that range in the ages of 5 to 8. Yeah, fun. I have an amazing squad. They are really good. Well, all but two of them. These kids do not pay attention for squat and I'm getting irritated. I tried to talk to a mom today and told her that he kid needs to pay attention to me and nothing else and maybe could she talk to her. Do you know what she said to me? AND? Yeah, that's what she said. I'm thinking to myself are you kidding me? You pay an ass load of money to not give a shit what you kid does during the practice. Tomorrow we are having a parent meeting and the President of the division is going to make a remark about kids being lazy and what not. Oh yeah, I have a grandma that runs the field when the girls have to run a lap around it and her and her granddaughter stop and eat candy. I'm like WTF? They are not allowed any candy or anything during practice. This will be mentioned also.

Tim and I are doing much better. He has been helping in the house and with the kids. I'm hopeful that it will continue as I really want us to be happy in all we do. I do love him to death but sometimes just want to kill him because he doesn't think. That's really neither here nor there though. We are good right now. Thanks to everyone for the comments and thoughts. I love you!

We are going camping this weekend. I'm pretty excited about that. We need time away for just us. Well, us and the kids of course. It's a tiny weekend getaway. We are tent camping too. I love tent camping. We don't get to do that enough since my dad has a cabin but we've decided to seriously rough it this weekend. Yay!!!

That's it for now. Talk to you all later!